I have not forgotten about Xanga...nearly but alas an update.

 

my life has been very busy lately, not because it has to be, but by choice...i get that. i actually enjoy the busy-ness on most days, keeps me hopping and lately has kept me pretty active.

i will soon be sending in the rsvp for my 10 year reunion. it's a little crazy to me, where did time go? i am not sure why i am going, as i am just basically paying $25 to spend time with the same friends i spend time with on a regular basis anyway... but i guess it will be fun to see people i haven't seen in years, right? so i have been thinking i will be a little like this " hi so-and-so , wow can you believe it's been 10 years, i know right!? so what are you doing these days? me? well i am a youth/children's pastor in bellefontaine. i love it! oh you are married and have kids, awh they are so cute! nope not married and no kids. well it was great to see you, see you again at our 25th, maybe." while possibly a slight strech, it's not much of one. i am not saying i am unhappy with my life, i am not at all. i guess i just don't enjoy surface chat/small talk all that much. i am sure i will enjoy seeing some people again.

more thinking...i have changed a ton since they knew me. while it does not seem like it could have been 10 years ago that i was graduating, high school seems so distant. 10 years ago i had no idea that i would be in bellefontaine working at a church. i thought i would be in a lab coat counting pills. i didn't kow then that my parents would get a divorce, that my dad would re-marry, that my mom and i would have a terrible relationship and that dad and i would be closer that we have ever been. i didn't realize how much my closest friendships would change, or how amazing new friendships could be. i never thought most of the people closest to me would be mid-40's and up....anyway that thought line could go on and on.

one thing i have realized this weekend and in the past several months is how much i love my church family. i guess with all of the shifts and thinking about bill leaving, i place myself in his shoes. i would be devistated, the people here are my family. they are the ones who make me soup, call to check on me, send cards, offer to come over when i have the flu. they are ones who call as soon as i get back from a 3 day trip to say they missed me or just want make sure all is well. the ones that call and ask if they should save me a seat at the parade. they are always there, i know if i ever need anything at all, i just need to say the words and they will be there.

i guess this weekend has just really added to the feeling of church family. i realized that at andy's graduation party i felt just as at home if not more at home with all of the peopel there than i do just about anywhere. i could have stayed all day and been happy. today i went to the verbsky's for lunch. i think i left at like 7:30, another place that is just like home to me, be yourself have fun and hang out just like any other family member. i don't ever want to take these relationships for granted they are amazing relationships! but at the same time, I know I may not always be here in Bellefontaine. It sadens me to even think about it. i guess you live everyday for what it's worth and cherish every moment and day with the people you love. speaking of... arden king passed away this weekend, most of you don't know him, i don't know him, i think i met him once. but he is the father of cathy wiley, father-in-law to keith and grandpa to jeff and kim. the wiley's are part of my church family and really great friends pray for them, it's so hard to lose a loved one.

well i think thats it for this entry... sorry if it wasn't intresting to you. no one held a gun to your head and forced you to read it. have a great week!